Moved.

don't ask me why. i don't seem to stay in place anyway. http://franklincaptivated--.blogspot.com/  what's more to say?

Faked.

an angel who can't fly.an angel whose wings cannot even carry themselves. throw paint on me. what's your point? you can't even save yourself. or am i just plian shit?

Today's rebecca's birthday, not me rebecca, but W228 rebecca. Also my eldest sister's birthday. She hasn't got a boyfriend yet, and it worries me. Funny how i am worried that my eldest sister doesn't have a boyfriend, maybe just because i want her room for my own. */haa/ Anyways i had a good day with my choir juniors at Seoul Garden today. They love the prawns that i cooked. It was no secret recipe. It was just the curious and crazy cells in me that wanted to try something new. Yes, they prompted me to try chocolate and long an, it wasn't me! But this time round it turned out right (my hair has it's own agent too). Then Edward, the thorn among the many roses */smiles/ started gushing about LJP-Li Jia's Prawns, LJS-Long John's Silvers a.k.a Li Jia's Shrimps, PQ-Prawn Queen. */jeez/ What's next? */roll/ Anyways, i had a good time with them. My grandma from Taiwan is at home right now, she's cooking dinner today!! WEE-HOO!! Today's filled with food. */haa/ Ah, 630 already, cat's dinner. s'long then my friends.

-thank you for the days of laughter in this blackening world of mine.

Nutcraker performances are over, christmas is almost over, the year is coming to an end. Lim Yao's not that unfriendly after all. It's really nice of him to give us that smile and little clap. */heh/ after looking at Nad's blog i found out that my entries are pretty much a summary compared to hers. Whatevers, i had a blog fer moiself. Ok. So like every year end, my parents' church's folks'd jus count down at ours and eat on porriage, then the kids which funnily includes me but i don't mind, would play fire sparkles at the void deck to mark the new year. Which reminds me, i'm suppose to clear my room up. Jeez, i haven't done that for years. Since when have my room been cleared before? It just twindles back to it's previous state no earlier then i've said this. */haa/ i haven't bought anything for anyone. Frankly, maybe i just can't bare to part with the cash in my bank. Whatevers. Christmas is about giving. And once again, i'm confused about my art topic again. Should i do My Dream or My Life? siigh!

-feeling so faked up, wash me clean.

No, it doesn't matter anymore.

Now that it's over are you missing it?

Got all grade 2s 'cept fer accounts and chinese. Never expected a two for art. Jeesz. */makes a face/ Anyways, that's just going to mean that i need to work much harder next year. Different to Nad, i'm okay with my results. */haa/ I did my best. Actually, come to think of it. I never really studied that hard for the Ns. Seriously. Maybe because it's all over that's why i don't feel it. But then again, i've felt this ever since i first took examinations. Hmmm. whatevers. it's Over, i'm just waiting for count down to 2006. You know how sometimes you feel that you're all over the place and just without aim? I'm feeling it. I don't know what i want. And i'm speaking this with all seriousness. I'm not sure if i want to make music for the rest of my life though no doubt music is my soul, i'm just not sure if i'd make it or not, but of course i know God has a future and hope for me. just what am i going through? of course i want to make music for the rest of my life. what am i saying? i don't know what i want.

-tell me what you want me to do. period.

After what i thought to be a nice day, was spoilt by that one remark. Cult? I stiiiiiiilll canNOT believe that i heard it coming out if his mouth. I felt that mixture of anger, hurt and betrayal. And i was thinking, betrayal? where did that come from? But anyways, i felt that. Maybe it was because of the fun time we shared at Haagen Dazs(is that how you spell it?), not forgetting the Ah Pek Ice-cream trip. Siigh. He has a lot of opinions on a lot of things. His opinions, that is. And, if he might just be gay(i figured that i should just spell everything out, slim chance that he might ever, ever read this anyway.), he would be a B***** gay. Yes. I can't believe i just typed that. But just let me won't you? I cannot stand the fact that he said we were a cult. Whatevers. My heart is held.

-you are my everything.

+I'm saving my money for a greater investment. My heart. Music.

+I need to get back. I'm drifting on distant shores. God. Help me. My life. Needs your handwriting, not mine. My pages. Need your filling and not the world's.

-knowing yet struggling but not surrendering.

Thanks Nad! *heh even though i said shopping is no fun with you, it was fake ya? Today was Far East was fun lah.. :)) *ha! Anyways, i'm looking forward to Bugis. *HA-HA  I'm seriously thinking about that sling bag. It's nice. I'd say one of a kind, especially if it's on moi. *BEAM WITH TEETH* *haha :D Subway's thee best! Virgin cheese steak sandwish. *Yumm.

Maybe we're just too comfortable with Mr. Wilson, i think that's the reason. Lim Yao.. you can say that we've all been notified that he has a Terrible temper, thus the tight tension of air in which we breathe together. Anyway, i'd definately have to agree that our side girls are really young and naive. Then it got me thinking that maybe our side students mostly have richer parents? As what Nad spoke of. *hmmm. Pampered kids. Oh weeell. What can i say? (nothing)

-you shine brighter than anyone

Today was shopping day. Planned a couple of places but ended up in two only. Was at westmall first to check out the Giodarno jeans, but didn't get it, thought that it needed some more thinking. *harh! That's me. :) Then i headed for Bugis. Favourite shopping place. Village, Bugis Village, to make it exact. So i bought a coupla things and have my eyes on a coupla of more things, so that means i'll have to make another trip down there. :) Bought 3 for $5 pendents, thought that they were really cool, a shoulder bag too. A cuff, which i really liked, the details are shown when light is reflected against the cuff. Two rings. Nice. :) And that's about all actually. Didn't manage to buy any belts which i wanted to. Though i saw something that could be Nad's christmas present. haha. :)) A coupla skirts i want to buy but no more cash, anyway i walked a coupla hours in Bugis. Luckily i went alone, or else it would have been less than an hour spent there, then i wouldn't have spot so much "gold" there. haha. Not that i mind Nad's presence there, but i've concluded one thing, i have passed my test on a women's shopping stamina. Nad has yet to pass it. So in mean time, i just have to make the shopping trips alone. :) I WILL BE BACK FOR BUGIS!!!

-fill me up for only you can.

I would rate it not bad, not bad at all actually.Consider it the "first" recording. Though i think, 'cause everybody wanted to make things right, but it got worse eventually. *hah! But i'd still say that it's not bad at all. We deserve at least a few pats. *smiles* :)) Too bad i didn't get to do my experiment.. :-/ i don't suppose i'd get to do it any time soon. *hah! But never mind i can always try it at home first.. *BA-HA-HA*

So now my family knows of the expo shift. My Big sister found out, probably from her friends.. *heh I could hear the hesitence in my mum's voice, no doubt my dad's ears were perked up even though he's hands held on to the newspapers. But anyway I'm sticking there and that's that. Final.

-stickin on.